Let It Go

[BklynMom]

Just thought I would post an update and journal a bit...

Life is good. My girls are amazing and I love being a mom. I feel so lucky.

This is the first weekend xh has had the girls since June 21. He has found excuses to give up his weekends. Its very sad.

But I have been the lucky one - able to spend that time with my girls. Its been an amazing summer thus far and now that my younger one is 4, it has been much easier to do stuff with them.

xh continues to constantly find ways to subtly say I am a b!$ch. He looks for excuses. He implies that I am a bad mom cause D4 has a paci at bedtime.

I used to let his little jabs get to me but I dont any more. He will always find something to make into a bad guy.

My life is fuller and richer then its ever been. I am doing very well at work and even doing more hobbies and work side projects in my free time.

I am a better friend and family member. More available and more engaged.

A family at my D5 school experienced a devastating tragedy this summer reminding me yet again how blessed we are for each and every day.

I still read these boards often. When I have pangs of "woe is me" - I always check my phone and read someones thread quickly. Helps me know I am not in this alone.

Also I always splurge on little treats for myself - like coffee or chocolate when I have a flash of sadness.

I also dont drink any more which I think has really been an amazing overall mood enhancer. When I rarely have 1 drink in the evening I feel it when I wake up and wonder how I was regularing drinking 2-3 glasses a night.

I love you all

and I love myself