Yes it's my day off and Im awake at 4 a.m.! I normally have to get up at this time anyways but on my days off I usually sleep in.
I was baffled by some issues we had at work regarding some medication missing, and had to call the NOC shift person and request she go over it with the supervisor today. My place of work has been taken over by a new company. The changes have been very uncomfortable causing chaos to ripple into every aspect of everyone's job there. I want out of this place of work but finding something else in this little town that's full time with PTO is hard. It's getting down to a personal choice now. This job is sucking the life out of me, and it's not effecting my personal life. I feel 20 years older than I need to, my house is a mess, and Im not getting the quality time with my girls that I want.
Time for a change.
You have some very interesting points about our situations. In regards to looking for different things in new people than what we were used to is a BIG ONE! I can validate that, because that's what I did with this guy Im involved with.
You know Lois.... I can truthfully say that getting back out there after a long term relationship has ended is TERRIFYING!!! WE sure as hell don't want to go through another devastation, so I think we can be overly cautious! We say we will not have anything to do with this type of person, what's a deal breaker and what isn't, and actually have this ideal person for our next relationship in our heads.
Then there's REALITY. And I think what it boils down to is really what you are willing to accept about another and what you really aren't. And the thing is.... you just may not know what you can accept and what you can't until you travel along a path with that person a while and really get to know them.
Maybe things that were a deal breaker in our minds before, may not be now! Maybe things that you DIDN'T think were a deal breaker before are now!
We just won't know until we have the courage to go forward!
Lois your gut instinct works, it's already working now, I think you just need to work on listening to it more and sitting with your feelings for a while. Believe me our random thoughts can screw up a gut feeling in a new york minute. But if you keep finding you have a feeling consistently, chances are you're right! So sit with your weirded out feeling a while. And be open to yourself about your sexuality! Sounds like this guy is comfortable in his own skin and he's taking flirtation to a different level.
And yes "sexting" is what the younger whipper snappers do! And I'd just come right out and ask him what he's into! Now, that's just me because Im bold and don't mince words. I don't have time to beat around the bush, time is too precious in this life!
