Thanks for stopping by CMF. I appreciate your insight here. I honestly did not think that porn was ever an issue for women as it is generalized thought that women are more emotional/touch while men are more visual. I too did not see the harm or problems that can be caused by porn. Thought it was just an ordinary thing for guys. I had always had that feeling of shame around it, but never really understood why. After talking to my C about this whole thing, he explained it to me. He also explained how it made my W feel too as well as several other women on here that have had to deal with it. It seems that it would be less painful to her if I were to drive a knife into her side than to be involved with porn.
Ive also done a tremendous amount of learning in the past few months based on reading and alot of self discovery. I have grown closer to God, to myself and my family. The funny thing about it is that I avoided doing this stuff before because I wanted to have fun and enjoy myself. I feel so much better about who I am now and the future that Im working towards that I cant even think about going back to who I used to be. Im sure that is the same for a lot of people on here.
I will have to check that book out. I have seen it talked about in a few posts on here. Will order that and Love Must be Tough today.
M:33 W:30 T:10 M:2 B/D: 5/27/14 S: 5/28/14 Wife moved back in 7/18/14