There are 2 people, with all their crap, in every R. It's not all you but you're the only one you have any control over.
You're unpacking that big bag-o-crap, that's good.
WE don't usually find self-esteem or happiness within a R. We have to find it within ourselves and take it into the R. Make sense? Other people can't give us those things or take them away.
Keep working. I admire you for your honesty and willingness to do the hard work.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss