mdu,

You've got this. Don't be so hard on yourself. Mistakes happen. Step back, calm down and process. What your dealing with is incredibly scary, and your anxiety is normal. Process for a bit and work on a technique to keep yourself focused. A cue you can use maybe. Keep your head up high. This isn't supposed to be easy or everyone would do it wink. Your doing great!

Dev

Me: 40
Wife: 38
M: 10. T: 18
S: 8, D: 6, S: 4
BD 02/01/14
Asked her to leave 02/01/14

Keeping the dream alive