Well of course I still love W. And strangely enough we are able to get along pretty well when we are around each other these days. We can laugh and talk about things. She seems comfortable enough to go through her life issues and problems with the rest of the world and I try to remember my validation without being my old critical self of everyone she talks about. I think that goes well. She still seems to be largely depressed from time to time and isn't dealing well with being away from S so much. She continues to try to make time to get over to pick him up or at least spend time with him here at my place at least once a week. I don't know whether I'm taking the right approach to her though. For the longest time towards the end of OM and afterwards I kept fairly distant and now that OM has been out for many weeks I am allowing us to be around each other. I even let her know S and I are going back to waterpark in a couple weeks and since she was upset to have not gotten to see him go last time she was welcome to come along and she jumped at the chance. But I can't say if my approach is best or not. At this stage of the game, with her finally getting over OM but still so depressed at life I know I can't pursue because she hasn't decided to say she wants to make an effort but feel like there should be a change of tactics.

Its been so long since her demenour was nice that I barely know what to do with it now. I feel like its time to go back and read the books again.


M: 43 W: 43
Married 6 yrs.
T: 7 yrs.
Son 20, 18, 17, 15 yrs. (w/ Autism), 12, 10