So, I'm going to fess up. I did call him and totally, totally screwed up. Yup, I failed the big test. I can't even bring myself to detail it, I am so ashamed. I didn't yell at him but I did put a ton of pressure on him about reconciling and moving back home. Yup, let my anxiety rule me once again. Let's just say at least now it's TOTALLY clear to me that we are not at all piecing, not even close. And yes, my actions have pushed us even farther away from that now. I just suck. I really feel like I need to go dark, for my own protection, because I really cannot take this back and forth with him. And can't even begin to imagine how I'm going to deal with her being in his office next week other than to completely disengage from him. I can't ML one day and then the next wonder if he's hanging all day with her at work (and possibly more). I just can't do this, I'm not strong enough.
M: 42 H: 43 M: 8 years S7 and D4 H has D19 and S25 from previous M Bomb: 3/6/14 OW discovered, EA & PA 1st separation, 10 days, decided to reconcile & moved back in. Fail 2nd separation: 5/1/14
