Finding my way - part 2

[Meghan]

I spent some time today focused on thinking through some of the things my counselor and I talked about this morning. I've been encouraged to face the possible end of the relationship more head on, which was difficult. I've cried off and on through the day. I talked to a friend this afternoon who suggested holding off until I could do talk through this kind of thing with a friend or family member who could add some points and keep me from wallowing.

I've never dealt well with loss, and this one seems to be even more complicated by hope. Reading stories here that end well and feeling like there could be a chance to fix things gives me hope, but I often feel like I don't want to have hope right now. I've long believed in its importance, but I swear that hope hurts right now - the moments where hope is shot down feel like I've fallen even further.