First post, confused

[asat82]

So I'm still thinking about her, she also mentioned on the phone on monday that she wanted to wait another week to change the car insurance plans. I told her I was just planning on changing it when I move back into the house in August. I love being at the house much more that where I am now, and feel so much happier there, and am able to do things that are close by. I am trying to take care of myself now, but looking forward to my trip to Germany and then moving back to the house.

I know I shouldn't, but I can't help but wonder if she will stay at the house for a bit when I move back, or if she will already have a place. From a mutual friend, she is still going out and doing things she has told me she doesn't enjoy doing. I don't know if she just needs to go through this phase, as she didnt go through it in her earlier years. I just hope that my detachment isnt showing her that I don't care. Im pretty sure she knows that I still care and that this is just time to spend on each of ourselves, without the stress of what we were going through together. I just miss my animals and my house, but am staying strong.

I would like to go see my animals... and her... before I go on my trip in late August, but maybe it would be better for us both if I just waited until my return. I am hopeful that my trip will help me focus on other things. Im just rambling =)