afraid I have waited too long #3

[nit84]

Back up on my soapbox for a second,

I thought the reason I had to give my W support was so she could move out and get away from this supposed hell that she says I am putting her through.

As I sit to make a budget for myself after this support is paid out I have come to realize that if my W stays in the home with me. She will have about 1600.00 a month to use however she pleases. After I pay the bills and hopefully she gives me her portion for the % of bills she is responsible for I will have about 550.00!! Nothing my L can do it is the law in my state.

WTF, is wrong with picture. I didn't sit on my behind for a year and not look for a job so I could go to gym the 3 times day lose 120 lbs and start an A with a trainer.

I worked as hard as I could to make sure I didn't lose my job through this ordeal and now I may have to get a 2nd job to eat.

So much for the consequences of being a WAW.

I know I am a better person than I was 13 months ago and for that I thank GOD every night but man this is a bitter pill to swallow. I am not wishing bad luck or ill will on my W but it seems like she is coming out of this smelling like a rose.

I will not let it show in front of her but I am pretty bitter at the moment.

I can't tell her to leave, the house is half hers, I can't refinance without her approval and I really don't want to sell the house.

I will figure something out and all will be fine just venting at the moment.

Sorry

Am I off base here comments appreciated