MM, I see you are continuing to have a really difficult tie with the concept of "dropping the rope." Perhaps I can suggest a different metaphor that might work a little better for you. It's a Starsky original, actually!
I call it "Stop pulling up the carrots to check on them."
It means you START to do the right things to move on (to plant your carrot seeds, and to begin growing them), but you constantly are just DYING to check to see how they are growing, so you rip them up by the roots!
Obviously, the carrots are still WAY too small (it's only been a few weeks), but now you've lost your small amount of progress, because you've ripped them up and they cannot be replanted.
Stop checking on the carrots -- just let them grow, trusting they will fully germinate and that you'll have yummy, full-grown carrots if you keep watering them (GAL) and feeding them (reading SELF-improvement books, not RELATIONSHIP books) and otherwise leaving them be.
