1 step forward, 1000 steps back - part 2

[mdu]

Thanks everyone. Can't say how much I appreciate all the support and guidance. I'm a very goal oriented person so this statement alone really helped, Starsky: "My counsel to you would be to make a goal for yourself that is centered ENTIRELY on how you react to what is said -- how you come across."

I can't quite explain it but I can feel in my bones when I'm truly on the right path. I think it happens when I feel like I'm being the person *I* truly want to be (forget about H). And a good listener who can keep their emotions in check in a crisis is part of the type of person I want to be.

So far my morning has gone well. Did some easy work that did well to distract me. Had a couple of meetings. Had to run to S's camp because I forgot to pack his lunch (Doh'!). Feeling good that despite this mess I am able to pull myself out of it and feel better, even if for just a few hours. Going to do my best to keep it going this afternoon and evening. The afternoon is going to be a bit tougher because I don't have any meetings but I think I will make one with my boss to talk about something fun/interesting like my career path! He's always up to chat. Also would like to get out for a little walk. Will probably do some more 'easy' work like clean out my desk and email. Good distractions and don't require too much focus. I'm planning to do at least 1 thing that I have been procrastinating on, that always makes me feel a lot better. Hoping that my cleaning lady made it to the house today so when I get home the house looks good which will lift my spirits a bit (she's always rescheduling --- I need to dump her!).

Ok, signing off for the afternoon. Will check in once more this evening but for the most part, I think I'm good.