1 step forward, 1000 steps back - part 2

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P.S. My plan for today is to NOT obsess over this. Do whatever I can to distract myself. Stop procrastinating at work. Go for a walk at lunch. Do something fun with the kids tonight. Stop obsessing over how unfair, how unjust, what a victim I am. I don't know if this is healthy thinking or not but I was telling a friend that I feel like OW is attempting to make a really aggressive play for H. She was like "Well then it's on!" I must admit, that thought really kind of motivates me. This woman will not take away my H and break up my family, she does not know who she's messing with!! Maybe this is not the best way to motivate myself but if it works and helps me have the motivation to keep my emotions in check, maybe that's ok?

I'm going to stay away from the boards today and just check in at lunch and this evening in case anyone has any final words or wisdom/encouragement before I talk to H tonight. We will speak at around 9pm.

Thanks again to everyone for your support. Seriously don't know what I'd do without you all. Especially yesterday when the IC I saw completely sucked. I'm not giving up (yet, although that experience does not at all help this IC skeptic), I got a referral from a friend and left a VM to make an appointment with someone else. Wish me luck that she can fit me in relatively soon.