Saw an IC for the first time today. It was pretty rough going through everything again to fill her in on my sitch, but I made it through. She said that I made a huge step in just coming in to talk. She said that the first thing we are going to do is to just come to terms with what has happened, without dwelling on the "why?" of it all. Then we'll work on moving forward. She said that I have to come to terms with it all before I can do anything else, and I basically knew that, but I'm hoping that she can help me do that.
W was in the neighborhood this evening for a meeting (she is still on the HOA board until elections). She sent me a message asking if she could stop by to drop off some things of mine that she found, and I said sure. Each time she stops by, I get so excited to see her, especially this time, since it's the first time in three weeks I've seen her. But each time I feel like crap after. She acts as if nothing ever happened. Not the separation, not the marriage, she just acts like we are two people that happen to know one another. And I don't know why, but that bothers me so much. And then she leaves, and I feel lonely again. I think this will be the last time for a while that I say "OK" to her coming over.
Me: 28 W: 28 Together: 9.5 years Married: 4 years Bomb dropped and W moved out: 6/15/14
