Finding my way - part 2

[Meghan]

Journaling: I got out for a ride this morning, and did a bit of shopping - bought a new lamp and some new pants to accommodate the fact that I've been losing some weight through this process.

I spent some time cleaning this afternoon and had a long conversation with my parents and a friend. It seems all the voices in the chorus are singing the same advice that I'm finding here - get out more, live my own life, rediscover myself, and do more things for me. I'm doing it, slowly but surely, and it does feel like it's helping.

H. emailed this afternoon, but I didn't get it until he was already on IM. I asked how things were, and he told me a bit about the hotel he stayed in before asking about my day. I kept it short and then we just kind of drifted off. He IMed again later to ask a question - I answered, he thanked me, and then we didn't say anything else.

I know that keeping contact to a minimum is important here, but it's hard to not want to ask all kinds of details and keep him engaged and chatting. He needs this time, though, and so do I. As soon as I was tempted to ask him something else, I called my parents to talk with them instead.