#33: HOLDING my ground... my self value

[makingmagic]

Hi Job... I absolutely know I CAN do that... I know I can keep my mouth shut & no R talk... I can do that!... I will take the time to think this through. No quick answers.

I am just wondering what a person who has dropped the rope & given up would do... thats what I think I want to do.... I am wanting to remain the person who gave up 4 weeks ago.

Gabby... You are correct, I shouldn't be basing my decisions on what he will feel, but how I will feel.... and I don't want to feel "hooked" and I don't want to feel disappointed.

Sandi ... he was very careful. He did it in a way with pause... LOL (same when he was asking me last weekend to go on the patio, with daughter & then we can pick up a vehicle). He first asked if I was going, pause, then mentioned we could bring my daughter if she wanted to go, pause, then we could turn it into a work event and drop off a vehicle for the client, pause. This of course would all happen after our work day. The party starts at 2ish-6.. His pause, was Because I wasn't giving him an answer. Also, with the work event. He was suggesting that I go, because its the right thing to do. He was concerned how he was going to reply, as his phone deleted the email request. Then paused... this is when I said are you asking me to go? He said "we could go together"... pause, then he suggested maybe even my DD could take us and be our driver.... I paused, and said I would think about all of this.

I'm just not sure... I want to preserve my self-value. I do. I also deserve his pursuit. I need to be able to say no to the "carrots".

I am afraid of "hook & release".... honestly.