#33: HOLDING my ground... my self value

[makingmagic]

Thanks Matt.... I think I can do all that (because I pretty much have to do that during work time anyway). My only problem may be that I might be "hopeful" the next day, or put meaning into it. <<<< this may be what I struggle with, and may chose as a reason not to go. If I did go, I could see myself being fully entertained by the others & not requiring HIS attention, therefore at a distance.

My question to you... you said that you were happy that you went to your family function... why?

My other question is.... would going to this event, delay my progress? I am trying soooo hard to drop the rope, get off his pant leg & to focus on pulling myself away. If I go, I won't be pulling myself away from him, but putting myself in his space outside of work. Will this delay or be considered a backslide in my progress? Will he feel "aha", got MM back under my power & will now play catch & release with me ... again? <<< I am not interested in the catch me & release me game any more!!

Maybe, if I am careful enough & distant enough I won't feel that he has "caught" me, and then neither can he.... ??? dunno

I just don't understand why he invites me to stuff if he does not want a relationship & he knows there won't be any sex either. Not sure whats in it for him. If he knows he doesn't want to be with me, why invite me? ... I don't want to be his "friend"