1 step forward, 1000 steps back

[mdu]

Part of my anxiety with H right now is that I feel like it's not even clear if he's fully recommitted to the M and we're working to reconcile. I want to ask him that directly. I want to ask him if we're on the same page and trying to work to reconcile or if that's still up in the air for him. I want to tell him that I will still work with him and try to see this as a setback rather than a dealbreaker if he's still willing to work with me. I also want to tell him that I think he should agree to the transparency plan and come home ASAP. I really feel like being physically separated is putting us at HIGH, HIGH risk with her being in the office starting next week. It's a small office, there will absolutely be NO avoiding her.