If there are no people in the town or the country where you live, then yes, it makes a lot of sense for you to leave your daughter for months in order to be around people.

If not, then you're grasping at straws and yes, it does look like you're running away...from your own daughter.

If there are people where you live, you can find some and get together with them, on your own initiative.

And about why your daughter might need you when she has her mom and boyfriends...

What was your relationship like with your father? Was he completely replaceable to you? Were you or would you have been completely fine with him withdrawing from you and departing the country, giving up on having any relationship with you, or otherwise writing you off to be the responsibility of your mom and future girlfriends? If you look at it from your own childhood perspective, can you see how this sounds?

Adinva 51, S20, S18
M24 total
6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out
9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50
5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend
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Happiness is a warm puppy.