I am going to annoy everyone here, i'm just venting/journaling, my mind is racing and I don't have anyone I can talk to about this IRL, I am reeling from tonight, and I know I am about to cop a 2 x4 for saying this but this ow actively pursued a married man, my h, and I know he did nothing to discourage this, but what kind of woman does that? she's 42, divorced, has a daughter, he's 33, has a w, 3 boys, limited income, no car of his own, I know none of this relevant, again just venting.
he says he'd like to see where this leads, is this normal behaviour? then in the same breath starts talking abut this great holiday we went on together years ago and how much fun it was. wth??
he still wants to be best friends, he couldn't 'protect' me from him, that he is the one who hurt me, I wanted to kick him in the n*ts, instead I validated what he was saying, that I understood what he was saying.
he still wants to do things as a family together, how does that work?
as confused as I am right now, my heart is breaking for our boys, they are so innocent and I just want to scoop them up and run away, I won't, but I just want to be safe and loved and have their family in one piece.
how does he tell me that he loves me and will protect me, yet still wants to see where it goes with her, forgive me for repeating myself and obsessing. I am trying to process.
