#33: HOLDING my ground... my self value

[makingmagic]

This morning he calls me... we discuss work & the days priorities. He then asks if I still want to go to the family party this weekend. I didn't answer yet. He then says it will only be from 2-6 roughly and if we want, maybe we can combine it with delivering to our client along the way. He also starts mentioning about the party for our mechanic for the 26th. Suggesting that we should be there. I asked if he was asking me to go with him? He said we could go together, and possibly ask my DD if she would be our designated driver. I said "I dunno, I will think about all this".

Of course I WANT to go.... I want to see the family too. Maybe, if I can contain myself to visiting with them, I will allow myself to go. I just don't want to give myself false hope & have expectations. ....

However, I know I WANT more, so why settle for less?

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Last night was the beginning meeting for my women's group. This term's theme is "personal mission makeover". For me, it is leading up to mean "personal growth" in the area of accepting myself, loving myself, etc. I realized again last night that I have put EVERY bit of faith into HIM & what he thinks of me. This happened because, HE believed in me (when I did not). He brought out the best in me. Turned me into a quality person & an entrepreneur (I did not believe in me...he did). Because of this, I pretzeled myself into being who he wanted me to be. This thought process must change... I must believe that I was always this person, and he merely helped me to see it. Now, I have to accept my potential. Let it resonate. My potential belongs to me and no one else.