I responded before I read your most recent response.

Step One: BREATHE.

Nothing has to be decided today.

But what did you say to your H? And where is his head at right now?

Journal here today. And keep journaling. But don't lose it again on your H. Just breathe and vent here.

M: 40 H: 44
Married 14 years
S11 & D6; D20 & D19 from previous M
2BDs/PAs, 8 years apart
Piecing: April 2014