Still waiting it out.. 8 months on..

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This journey is hard! I'm sorry you are having a rough day. IMHO, it seems like you need to detach more. I realizetp this is much easier said than done. While DBing is partially about saving our M's, I think it's more about finding our own happiness. Our H's need to see someone they don't want to live without. Someone posted this in another thread and it really resonated with me:

Your spouse can't make you happy
You marriage can't make you happy
Only YOU can make you happy

Since you are around him right now, go off and do your own thing when it feels overwhelming. Take a break for something that will make you smile or laugh. Put on headphones and dance around the room while you pack. Anything to boost your outlook for a bit.