Phoenix slowly rising

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Hey TL, thanks for the post. Yes, my FOO (now I know what that means - read it in the Rebuilding book - just hadn't gotten that far when you mentioned it the first time)also taught me some not so great things. But many good things too. Mostly from my dad who I adored. My mom was really never meant to be a mom. She would have been better as a career woman. Even though my mom was my main parent (she divorced my dad), I didn't spend much time around her. But I did observe her reactions to things and most times it was not good. I never wanted to live my life like that and I made the choice early on not to. Can't say I escaped all her influence, but I didn't listen much to her advice. Yes, it makes sense to identify those undesirable things you may have acquired and make a concerted effort to find another way of responding. Makes total sense.

I finally sat down and wrote a list of things I would like to do and places I would like to visit. Funny, I never thought taking a calculus class would be on a bucket list but I do love math. Just never had to take it while in college. I also want to take a woodworking class so I can rebuild this cool wood chair I bought many years ago that was a little rotted to begin with. I had separated out all the parts, put em in a plastic container and was looking to get it redone by someone. Maybe that someone will be me!

I feel like I am almost completely detached. I guess the true test will be once my H gets back from his trip and we have to see one another for the first time in several months. But right now I am enjoying where my head is. I feel in control of myself emotionally.

Next Monday I have to go to the oncologist for a 6 month check up - I just hope nothing cropped up after all I have been through this past year. Stress isn't good for keeping cancer at bay. But I'm not going to worry about anything until there is something to worry about. Trying to follow that strategy in all facets of my life.

Decided I'm going to concentrate more on my health and diet now that I have some space in my head for it. Detaching helps in so many ways!

Trying something new and deciding then if it's worth doing it again or move on to something else. We learn from each experience, even the little things.

I like the concept. Will incorporate! Thank you for your wisdom.