Thanks again 25, yes 8 definitely need the 2 x 4 sometimes, and yes I do obsess, part of being an anxiety sufferer, I am working on that, some days harder than others. The time that he didn't ring the boys in the morning wasn't his bday, I think I gave the wrong impression, he'd gone out for drinks for his birthday, celebrated early, I think I was more upset about the fact that he'd said he'd call them in the morning and hadn't, and in hindsight I shouldn't have said to the boys that he'd ring, because when he didn't, I had three upset little boys, I should have just left it and it would not have been an issue. I know I don't acknowledge his good stuff enough but I am learning. The pole dancing is just for me, something I've wanted to do for a while but have never found the time, and I know that was because I used every excuse under the sun(and could blame him) for not taking the chance.
I'm still unsure what to do when I do see him, I get so flustered then I make mistakes, but at least now I'm recognizing what I'm doing. I am constantly referring to the books and sand ' s rules, and I've also printed out some of your replies too 25, iis hard to acknowledge where you go wrong but at least I'm willing to learn.
I am having a me day today, nails, waxing, hair, because this afternoon I have someone taking photos of me for a friend who is possibly going to use me for the model for her skincare range as it gets re branded, I'm pretty excited about that, even if nothing comes of it, it was nice to be asked.
I am going to make some cards sometime in the next few days, I've had a couple of requests and it's great to feel some creative mojo coming back, the gals are small but I'm sure I can find more. don't give up on me 25! I'm going to be the woman only a fool would leave!!
