Trying to detach

[HeadUp]

In the beginning of the relationship she was my dream girl and I was working and she was in a tough situation with her ex and D1(at the time). I came in was the good guy and did anything I could to be there. A year after we got together I lost my job and wasn't able to get anything. I got depressed and I tried to hide it. I told her that I felt like a failure and that I wasn't good enough for her. She said she understood and took care of my feelings. Thinking there was something wrong with me because I couldn't snap out of it. I caused her emotional abandonment and I always tried to listen to her and be there and explain that "I wasn't thinking that." or "No that wasn't what I mean by this." But we would always get in fights and I have a huge problem with being wrong. Something I can thank my W for pointing out. The years passed and I gained weight and became even more unhappy with that. I made every excuse of why I wasn't losing the weight except for myself and I started really hating my job and not enjoying going to work.

About 2 weeks before I got booted out I realized I wanted to do something to get myself out of this rut. I started reading about how to fix myself and be the man I know I am. Of course when I tried to talk to her about this she was busy with either kids or dogs or FB. Then I got booted. And now she wants the keys to the house because she thinks I am going to barge in.

School hasn't started so I have basically watched my children at my moms house for the past month now. She has gone out every night (checking the bank account in the morning before I spend money because I can't afford to give it to the bank) and I think this will all end when she gets her other daughter back and school starts. I dont know what to do. I have read sandis rules and I should be getting DB today after work. I have to talk to her when I drop off the babies on friday before I go out of town on my vacation for the weekend. I don't know what to do with that and that is getting me thinking of do this no do this no do this. So I am not planning on talking to her until friday and then until the next friday. am i doing the right thing? I want to put my ring back on but I think it is I don't even know.