Continuing; after she dropped the bomb, I lost my mind. I tried convincing her that she shouldn't do this, divorce would be terrible for the kids, blah blah blah...all the really good stuff that pushes the WAW further away. I made my "last gasp" effort when she went to visit family in WI at the end of May. I tried to do a really good job w/ keeping the house clean and upon her return I was very kind to her and sort of acted like nothing happened. She leveled me w/ her rejection of me at that point. I'd learned nothing yet, so it was like a bomb went off. I gave up and then made things worse. I had learned that I needed friends, so in reaching out to old friends and acquaintances I blabbed about my troubles to many of them. From there, I got into a friendship with an OW. This friendship turned flirty and became an EA. I didn't even really realize what I was doing at the time except (I thought) trying to rebuild my shattered life. I had even had this OW and her kids come swimming w/ me and my kids at my parents' house. Idiot!!! I'm so glad she intercepted a text I'd sent to a buddy and blew the lid off the whole thing on the 4th of July. Didn't know it yet though and went reactive and told about 40 mutual friends on Facebook about the divorce and the pain...even saying they should unfriend her. Ugh, what a jerk. When I saw her in pain, I realized that I still love her deeply and that I'm not going to give up without a fight. I found DR at the library and have begun trying to use the divorce busting techniques to repair my M. To be continued...
Me: 34 W:33 T: 10 M: 6 S: 6 D: 5 BD: 5/14 Still together(ish) Not giving up: 7/14 D talk has slowed, a lot. Gradually working on things together. Still separate bedrooms. Slow and Steady wins the race.
