Old dog seeks new trick

[Old Dog]

Some 180s

My biggest 180 is refusing to let past behavioural traits get me down. I am trying my level best to keep my positive mental attitude alive all the time. Before I would hunker down and just wait for the bad times to pass.

I am walking tall with my head held high, shoulders back, chest out and walking briskly instead of ambling along.

Every Wednesday is my ’happy shirt day’ at work, I actually started it before bomb day, but I’m continuing with it and my coworkers seem seem to enjoy it. I have also bought two pairs of nice jeans and a cool shirt: I have need been into clothes/fashion - what’s wrong with black? I’m back shaving every day instead of every few days, I got my hair cut shorter than usual, I’m trying to look good.

If someone asks me how I am, I’ve taken to saying ‘all good, nothing bad’ which I’ve borrowed from UK DJ Danny Baker - I love his show, he is a self professed Pollyanna. It’s quite amusing for people who know my situation but also a very positive statement by those who don’t.

I’ve read: DB, DR, David Millar’s autobiography (cyclist who succumbed to drugs and fought back)
I’m currently reading: MAFMWAFV
And lined up I’ve got: The 5 love languages, Feel the fear and do it anyway, How to change your life and everyone in it

I’m listen to Oli Doyle’s Mindfullness podcast when I need it.

I am keeping busy when at home doing numerous chores: washing, ironing, gardening, fixing stuff, mending bikes, taking rubbish to the tip. If something needs doing, I am just doing it.

I have made food for the kids and family spontaneously and without grumbling. This is a big thing for me: I am so bad at cooking and even thinking of things to cook, plus I’m a vegetarian and the rest of the family aren’t.

I have stopped comfort eating and in general eat far less the before. I seem to have lost my appetite for some reason. I have lost 9.5kg / 1.5 stones / 21lbs.