My H's MLC #2

[Ssarah]

Thank you for your response Georgiabelle. If you ask me generally do you want to save your marriage? I will tell you yes. But then if you ask me if I think there's hope, I will tell you absolutely none. So then do I continue on, keeping this whole affair and what's going on in my house a secret, internalizing everything and living in a hell? I can't tell my brothers because if I do they will turn on him and he will hate me forever. Now after yesterday he has convinced his brothers that I'm just crazy and threw him out (poor him). I'm really starting to feel crazy myself. I don't know how to turn my mind and emotions off and just let things be. I'm sitting here reading old texts between my husband and myself trying to figure out where things went wrong, when this affair started and when this marriage was lost. I keep searching for these answers and I don't knwo how to stop. I just feel like I'm losing all control over myself and everything else.