Trying to find my way

[Maybell]

Yes, what pilot & oad said.

Also... He could have hugged and kissed you. That was an option he chose not to take. So don't keep pointing the finger of blame at yourself. He has some responsibilities in your marriage too, and he's dumping them and not even being subtle about it.

I did the whole self-blame thing for a while too. it is the mark of a fixer. You can't fix him and he doesn't want you to, so maybe you should investigate what it feels like to put that aside for a while.

Take these couple of weeks to investigate what you want and need. Listen to the good advice you're getting. You're in the right place here.