MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART III

[ItHurts]

Thank you Heart! You know Thorn, there is a part of me that senses that. The one sentence that stands out most to me is when she said part of her wants to go back. That right there is all I really need to know to confirm she is uncertain. There is just nothing more I can do. She just will not budge on this. All I can do is go along with her. She is definitely hurting...she came out and said that. She said she still loves me a couple times too but I am not sure if that's still friend love or husband love.

There's still a couple days left and maybe, just maybe, she will change her mind but it hurts me too much to hope for that and it hurts my PMA and my GAL that I am currently practicing. I just wish she would stop thinking of it as going "back" instead of going what it would be...going forward. I even told her that anything that we have going forward would have to be brand new, that we still would have our history, but a new relationship would have to be created practicing all the things we've learned from this ordeal...that we've both learned from the many mistakes we made. I don't know what the next couple of days will bring and perhaps I won't hear from her again in time before Thursday. All I can do is hope she is still pondering all that we talked about yesterday.

This is just so damned sad and tragic. I am so emotionally exhausted and worn out, I have tried everything and it seems like my GAL has backfired more than it has helped me. I guess mine is a rare sitch where the GAL created more problems than solutions.

Thanks for the kind words guys, I will certainly keep you posted.