Funeral for a husband, love lies bleeding

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cc I know the feeling. the ex would come over and share what was going on in his life at work etc and never once asked about me or what was going on so I did not offer. I too bit my tongue and missed having someone to share with. even if it was just a new bird at the feeder because we would share things like that up until BD. It svcks. Yes and the sex... that was a hard thing to give up too. we would be intimate every night until the day he moved out. I don't regret that even if he was just using me. good for you on not snooping - I stopped doing that a few months after BD, it only hurt me. It works better for me to just completely wipe it clean from my mind - dive into something else. gardening and sweating my butt off really helped me. In retrospect, I would think of it as a faucet or dimmer switch (my love) for him. it was on full blast and he expected he could turn me off like a light switch, but love doesn't work that way. Now i've slowly been able to turn down the dimmer switch, turn the water flow off. I don't wish him any harm, only good things, but yeah - that love has definitely faded faster than I expected. I think it's survival mechanism kicking in or something. Not going to pine for someone that doesn't want me. I'm too good for that. Anyway - just checking in on you and letting you know you're not alone in those feelings and that it's completely normal. Things will get better. Keep your head high and a positive attitude