To get the most out of the DBing process, I'd highly recommend that you visit other threads and post there. I learn a lot by visiting various threads and gain a whole lot of perspectives here.
Perhaps I am wrong...but I don't see you posting in other people's threads. Just staying in your own thread isn't doing you a great service at all. I'd urge you to branch out a bit and take a look around.
Pick several that resonates with you and post there. You'd be amazed at the type of exchanges here when you do that.
Glad to see that you're trying really hard to see your M in a different light.
Did you know that there's a former WAW who is active here. Her name is Sandi and if my memory serves me right...she had OM for 2 years before she dumped him and went back to her H. Sandi is providing great advice around here.