MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART III

[ItHurts]

Thanks guys. Well the WAW e-mail correspondence about the court date was light and friendly as I mentioned. I even cracked a couple jokes in my reply to her. Then came her next reply...

She said she is really mad at me. She said she's heard that I am doing things and going places I would never take her to. She said she feels as if she wasn't worth it to me. She said "you haven't skipped a beat since I left." She ended the e-mail with saying she felt like hurting herself.

I replied, of course and basically told her that I was going to call her parents and tell them what she said. I then went over all of our issues again. She said with Thursday looming (the divorce court date) she was reflecting on the things that led to this and she was angry that my changes came after she'd already left. I basically told her if she has ANY doubts at all, we should not proceed with the divorce...that there is nothing wrong with an indefinite separation. I offered to meet with her in person because I felt like she was worth an in person meeting to talk about these important things versus an impersonal e-mail. She said if she thought she could get together as just friends she would be there "in a heartbeat" because she misses her friend ItHurts terribly. But she said we'd eventually start talking in circles about the same things again and that wouldn't be fair to me. She said she wishes she had made it more clear the things she wanted different...and that part of her wants to go back, but that going forward alone so she can find herself is the only way. She said going forward has to be about her and her alone. She wants to relocate to Florida in the next 6 months and start over again. She said she will always love me and thanked me for all the good things I brought to her life. She said I deserve a better woman than her, someone more suited to me. There is nothing that ever went on with OM either it seems beyond the phone calls.

I did ask her what happens if a year from now we realize we both messed up and after seeing other people we realize that what we had was super rare? Then what if we're divorced? She basically said she wasn't the right person for me. That she needs to find herself. She misses the friendship we once had. She said she knows she hurt me immensely and she is very sorry for that.

As the conversation went on she was basically talking in this same tone that she is not the right person for me. That she isn't good enough and that she's done enough damage already to me. So she still wants to go through with the divorce and of course I said that's fine, that I will do whatever she wants. So that's how we left it.

So it's not looking good my friends, the divorce is still happening in spite of me trying to explain to her that she clearly has doubts about it and that she shouldn't make such a final decision if there is even a shred of doubt. She didn't listen and I am back to simply obliging her.

I will keep you guys updated but at this point I don't expect to hear from her until we are in court Thursday morning. The end is near now and I have failed to save my marriage sadly. There is just no getting her to budge on this. Thank you all for your replies here as well, I appreciate it.