Thanks for keeping up with me T-boned, TL and welcome, Loualea.
I am off of the initial "high" of first week post D day. I had lots of support, but the way down over weekend hit. I did go early Sat and ran "a loop" as they say here about a path around popular lake in Dallas.
I failed to make other GAL plans for the rest of the day. I did not think ahead. I did dinner/movie with friends Friday and church/dinner w/friend on Sunday, but Sat was lonely. I need to be able to have solitude without panicking, which I have been able to do, but for some reason the first weekend post divorce, I've panicked for not having "plans" on Sat. Wow! I have to work on that! Both on being proactive in plans with friends, AND on being able to be with myself and okay with it. Even enjoying it. I used to enjoy the solitude of the weekends that H would travel. Need to get back to that

yes, I agree with you TL. It is possible to detach yet stand, but coming here to boards for comfort does tend to keep me back in the MLC mindset thinking of "HIM" and I need to NOT think of "HIM" as much as possible. Yet, occasionally I realize that I have not thought of HIM for several hours! Yay for small miracles.


M 56 H 52
M 13.5 T 15
S 28 twinStep Ds 24
ILYBNILWY BD 1/5/14 OW 4/11/14
Divorce petition efiled 5/5/14
Divorce final 7/8/14