W is back with OM, which is not a surprise. W keeps sending me emails, texting me (which I don't respond to) that she doesn't want it to be over between us, but her actions are to stay with OM. I told her I'm going through with the divorce and if she's serious about us this shouldn't stop her from leaving OM and we could consider R in the future.
W told the kids last week that she is pregnant. D6 is excited. S5 is a total boy and doesn't care. I'm going to stay pretty quiet on the matter and not bring it up. While I won't say anything negative about it, I just can't bring myself to be excited about it.
Also, we still haven't told the kids that we are divorced/are divorcing yet. I've brought it up to W, but she starts crying and says she can't do it and wants to wait until after the divorce is final (she wants to wait months after I guess). W told me she lied to OM that she told the kids.
It seems like the kids will correlate the divorce with the baby, but I don't know, hopefully not. I don't really want to solve W's problems anymore, so I don't really think about it.
I wish I could say I was a DB champ or something by now, but the detaching part has been tough with OM living a couple houses down. W comes to his place every now and then and a lot of people in our neighborhood know. It hasn't exactly been paradise.
I've got a court date for early August to finalize the divorce. When I told W about the date when she was dropping off the kids, she teared up and says it's too quick.
There's a part of me that agrees, that their relationship is going to end permanently in the not too distant future. But it's the baby thing that just makes it not possible to wait. I can't handle having W in constant contact with OM for the next 20 years. I just can't do it. Maybe somebody stronger than me could, but I've figured out what I can handle.
