The morning sun is shining like a red rubber ball.

[wishing, hoping]

See how I still get wrapped up in the crazy??? UGH! I think I make progress and now I feel like I have had this huge setback.

I know J will not let S do anything stupid in his car. But I am the mom and I worry too much. That's my job. And I hope this is good for S. I want him to be a good driver and SAFE!!!!! I will let this go, of course. But I will still worry deep down.

And I see your point about S talking to me. I clarified things for him this morning. I told him if he needed to talk to me about things it was okay, but that the things he tells me upset me especially since I can't do anything about them. I said you can talk to me, but you need to talk to your father, too. He said okay.

I called J this morning because some things were missing from D's backpack like her water bottle, her sunscreen and her sandwich container from her lunchbox. J talked to S about it (because apparently J wasn't sure where these things were) and then talked to me and said he would have OW drop these things off. Oh, that makes me feel better. Not. If the kids don't have these things when I pick them up, then I will have S go to the house and get them J and OW be dammed. But I guess J has found himself the in-house babysitter/secretary/maid he always wanted. I see it happening. J working more, gone more, and OW left to take care of the mess left behind. Right now she is more than willing to do it. I wonder how long that will last?

It's hard enough being a parent for a 13 year old boy, a 7 year old girl and a 3 year old dog. I don't need to be a parent for a 46 year old man.

WH