Trying to find my way

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Meghan, I can relate that it is really hard not to show emotions. Try and cry somewhere other than in front of your H though. I think they see that as added pressure and it usually pushes them farther away. I would take his lead on the goodbye. Let him initiate a hug or kiss and don't ask him to contact you when he makes it. I completely understand wanting to know. That doesn't help with detaching though. Maybe this trip will be a good way for him to get clarity on the situation and what he wants. Let him go and try and focus on doing things that make you happy while he's gone. I know this is easier said than done. Good luck and post here often when you're struggling. We are here to support you.