Nero - I get that we fear loneliness. We are social animals, but i also believe we are beings who need to make our soul, and that we do alone. It is a long slow quiet process, a bit like germination.
I understand that you do not want changes, and that your h is being nice to you. Give yourself a break for now, but loneliness is what we work through in order to be able to be alone and free, truly free, when we do not need anyone else to complete us.
It isn't the same as pushing people away, or refusing to engage. Living alone and liking it is so hard initially, and then suddenly it becomes delightful. It stops being a burden and becomes a blessing.
We choose who we wish to have in our delightful space.
I find it terrifying that some people measure themselves by how many fb friends they have.
