Hoping for positive changes

[artsy]

Ok- he keeps making excuses to stop by. He admitted it's an excuse to see me and the dogs. He said he can't explain in words why he has the need to see me.

So, I told him I found the letter, and admitted I am avoiding him. I told him I needed space.

He said he was sorry.

I said I am too (about a million things, mostly my role in this and the fact he lost his integrity and respect along the way. I have owned my role and apologized at least 3 times- in writing!!!! He has the proof right in front of him if he wants to see it.)

He replied: you're sorry?

I left it at that. He rejected my other apologies and said I had done nothing wrong, he was the one who messed up, yada yada yada. I'm not apologizing again right now. And, he can sit and be curious for a bit. As I told him, I need space!!!!

FWIW: I felt a HUGE weight lifted off my shoulders! What is that?? Thank goodness!!!!!