WAH with OW/EA - advice wanted! :)

[LisaB]

Hi cq1 and pilot! Thanks for the helpful words.
Hope you are doing well today. I have had a rough weekend, feeling really sad, depressed, emotional etc etc. Haven't wanted to leave the house, just moping around crying and being sad. Sometimes I think that is needed to get to the next level. Most of the time I am putting on my brave face and being social so sometimes I think I just need to be a wreck, break down, and be alone with my feelings. Eventually you just get sick of being pathetic.

The good news is that maybe I came out on the other side with a better attitude!

I'm sure I will be back on the rollercoaster soon but for now I am feeling like F U! F U and F that stupid little s!ut! You both are liars and losers and I hope you enjoy being together in your stupid loserdom.

Not just angry - really I don't feel that angry today - it is more like HA! I don't care about you! I feel superior and strong. I feel excited to start a new chapter, to be fully in control of my own choices. To make a great life for myself because I AM GREAT! Not have to ask H for his opinion, not have to think about his needs or desires. To do whatever I want. I don't have to GAL, I have a great life, and I can make it even greater every darn day.

I'm sad to think this good feeling will pass. I like it.

Hope everyone is feeling strong! RAARRRRRR!!!!
Hugs, Lisa