one day at a time

[twinmom]

So last night I went out with friends. Lillian is taking a bottle (the twins never did) I went to dinner and a movie. Btw Tammy wasn't as funny as I thought it would be.

H said I looked good and turned him on. (Yea I had lots of makeup on a skirt and REALLY high wedges) I didn't respond to that.

I had a few drinks and got home really really late. I had sent H a text telling him to take more milk out of the freezer that I was drinking and would need to pump and throw away when I got home instead of nursing. H actually told me to enjoy myself, he hates when I even have one drink so I assumed he would be really angry with me. I didn't make it to church this morning. H (who is supposed to be packing) asked if I wanted to go to 4:30 Mass at another church and then out to dinner with his parents and a few of his brothers. Ummmmmmm wth?!?!?!

H tells me he hasn't been going to church because he is embarrassed that I have been taking the kids every week by myself and people think badly of him about that. (And only Father and like 3 people actually know what he did) so he is happy I didn't go to church this morning because now he can go with. Ughhhhhhh

H asks for sex this morning. I told him no that he doesn't love me and I can't do the random fu$@ thing. He tells me he can give me the emotion part of sex as well as the physical part. I told him no and went to target.