Yesterday: At work, he suggested that its such a nice day and that I come bring the cat & come for a swim, as he would be in the pool too. I just smiled and didn't really answer other than "its a nice day". I wish I had said "Its not really a good idea, right now"... I felt I had missed my opportunity.
It was a successful day at work, sold another.. He started talking again about how great owning that location would be, & how he would organize the office & paint, etc. I said how great it sounds for him. He clarified & said that it would be good for us (in business). He also spoke a bit about how impressed he is with that RE agent, how she is a huge seller & on the top of the charts for her success (10M in commission). That RE is a better business than ours, etc & should be in THAT.
He had been texting with my daughter, making arrangements for the movies. I was headed out and on my way driving back to parents. We agreed I would swing by to drop the cat off, later. On my way back home, he called & asked if he cancels out on movies, as they didn't seem interesting to him, and he worked a little while longer back at house with our painter, would I like to go sit on a patio with him & DD and combine it with picking up another vehicle in next town? I scrambled/panicked for an answer & said I dunno, I'm driving & would call him later. ..... missed opportunity AGAIN!! UGH!!
A while after I got back at the house, I discussed with my DD (as I didn't want this to stop them from getting out). I decided I would I text: that the cat was acting up & couldn't catch her. Maybe they would have better luck when he comes to pick up DD for dinner or movies later. (not really answering his question if I want to be on patio with him, etc) He phoned... immediately:
He said "so, does this mean you don't want to go?".... (drum roll). I said "I don't think its a good idea, right now". He said "OH, ok" and then proceeded to say he was going to still ask my daughter to go with him locally on a patio. I said good idea & bye.
Last night, I got dropped off & went out to see a friends band play. My vehicle stayed in the driveway.
When he came to pick up my DD, she noticed that he turned down the street the opposite way & intentionally looked at neighbours house (assuming I was there?). My DD also said that he mentioned to her that he invited me, but I seemed grumpy & wondered why.
SO... I did it... I got the opportunity to turn him down... 180! It is totally against what I am really wanting in my heart, but figured I needed to do this for ME! To express my self value & show that I do not NEED his cookies.
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So why does it suck today? why is my tummy flip flopping?
Last edited by makingmagic; 07/13/1403:59 PM.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
