Ughhh.. S and I are heading north to visit my family for a few days. 8 to 10 hour drive usually takes 12. First time I am doing it without h. Ss19 was supposed to come to help with s in car but now he is unable.

S has a history of really acting up in the car. Apparently just with me. H claims he is an angel for him. S has no real understanding of time or distance so "are we there yet" starts as soon as we pull out of driveway. This is followed by screaming, throwing, unbuckling, hitting and pulling my hair.

I have a safety lock for the seat belt. Plan on taking lots of dvds (s can't change on his own so there will be screaming when a DVD ends until I can pull over. Lots of his favorite music downloaded, books food.

I was excited but now dreading this trip. I also feel like h expects me to fail. I know that is mind reading.

Me 44 H 42
M 10 T 12 (at time of BD)
Ss 20 16
S11 (special needs)

BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom
10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied
S and I move out 3/15