1 step forward, 1000 steps back

[mdu]

Had an amazing afternoon with H. Played hooky together and met at the house. First, made long sweet love. It wasn't our first time since the separation but it was probably the best. Then had some lunch and went for a walk on some trails near our house. Chatted and chatted. Finished our time together off with an ice cream. Although I had my moments when OW flashed in my mind, I kept my emotions 100% in check and just completely enjoyed the time. Things I am trying to do to make sure things go well when we spend time together (and that are working!):

-make the time fun and light, no heavy discussions!
-really pay attention when H talks, I try to remember details so I can ask questions later
-make sure I look and smell good from head to toe. Wear flirty things
-let H do some leading (although this one truly is tough, he really does not seem to like to decide, I'm really trying to stand back!)
-laugh and smile a lot, be flirty
-keep my emotions and expectations in check. There were moments when I wished H would tell me he loved me, when he didn't I just brushed it off and told myself it will happen when the time is right.

Tomorrow we have the concert with his older son and fiancé. Apparently they don't even know yet that I'm coming too but I didn't say anything when H mentioned that. I assume they won't have any issue with it, even though I really haven't seen them much through the separation.

And tonight I am going on the full moon canoe tour I signed up for a few weeks ago. Going by myself and looking forward to it, weather looks like it will be fantastic tonight.