Trying to find my way

[Meghan]

Journaling: I woke up mopey again this morning, but forced myself out for a bike ride and a bit of thrift store shopping. I came home with a few games and books in support of new interests. It was hard getting out and there were some very sad moments, but I think I feel a bit better overall, so that's something.

Unfortunately, I also came home to a spouse who still seems quiet and moody and barely said three words to me. I was cheerful and said I was doing pretty well when he asked how I was, though - I'm working at it as best I can. I'll be showering soon and will put on a new shirt and some flattering jeans, jewelry, and makeup to look my best.

We're supposed to go do some errands this afternoon, but I don't know how well a walk 45 minutes each way is going to work. It could be fine if we find something neutral to talk about, or it could be quiet and awkward and painful.