MM, when you do or say something and later come to the realization that it was not productive or healthy, you tend to come here as if to confess and be judged, and then self-flagellate as if to say you're harder on yourself than anyone else could be.
That reads as unhealthy. It would be more adult to journal what you did, what you learned from it, and what you would do if you could go back in time or if the situation comes up in the future. That way you're ready.
Figuratively punching yourself does no good and sounds childish. Can you try presenting yourself with more dignity? Can you act as you would like to be perceived? Can you take your mistakes as an opportunity to learn and progress rather than beat yourself up?
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
