CSan - Filed, moving and life goes on....

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I see now that I panic whenever my STBXH pulls back not recognizing he needs his space. I make ASSupmtions which doesn't help me at all and leads me to more of the same which is overreacting that's something my STBXH told me he disliked about me. Still have a long way to go in improving myself and learning DBing. I wonder if I screwed up too much...My STBXH did text me Good morning today and also called me at work which he has not done in over a month. He called to see if I could give him a ride from my mom's house as he was taking my dad's van over there. He ended up getting a ride from my mom back to his house. I'm trying really hard to not have expectations of what this all means or what he is thinking. I feel a bit sheepish about how I have let my emotions take over. Lots of work for me to do. This is certainly a roller coaster which I didn't take into consideration at all. Man, I feel really humbled because things that I thought were true like I truly did understand DBing is not close to reality. I want to learn to take each day as it comes and not project into the future so much that I can't see the forest for the trees. I do find it hard to give advice to others on here because I don't feel like I have enough time and work on myself with DBing so how can I help someone else...okay enough rambling