I didn't think I was indulging in R talk... until I was deep into it & thought it was my opportunity to state that I had given up. Pretty sure I said it a few times too. I regret the convo now. And I am beating myself up pretty bad now too. ALL DAY!
I agree that he has a tonne of excuses why my name isn't on the business, yet. HOWEVER... I do believe he wants to finalize it. It is another thing that is hanging over his head & he does want it dealt with. Yes, he feels it is "our" business now (8 years), but he wants MAJOR recognition that it was HIS before & because of being able to run off his already established business, he wants compensation! He does FEAR giving up control and that is probably why he has used stall tactics. I do not feel that he is using a tactic ATM because he is extremely invested in securing our business location & that has him spinning out of control. He views this property as sanity control & I see it, it does make sense.
No more R convos. No convo's of what happened 3 weeks ago... back to business only! He says he is in limbo. I will ignore the "cold" comment & the other comment about "if he thought I was with someone, it would deter him further".... I cannot be pulled back into his drama or be his puppet. He "said" A LOT this time, recalling a few other things... but, I cannot believe what he says!! RIGHT?
YA! I had to laugh at me too... I can insist all I want & still get no where.
...DID NOT PICK UP THE ROPE (looked at it, got close), but BACKED AWAY FROM THE ROPE!
Tonight, I was offering to help him with our abundance of work & when I called him it seemed to be bad timing. I was asking how I can help & was interested in how he was going to make it all happen. He was irritable & apologized (saying he has a lot on his plate). I think he is trying to stalk the "crack head seller" amongst getting his moms RX and its taking a toll on him. I was still trying to ask about our business and what was needed & he honked his horn, interrupted me, said he had to go & apologized again for his mood & he was anxious to get off the phone. <<< this set me back. I feel like he was protecting a lie. I don't like how it made me feel. I cannot assume. I cannot mind-read. I am letting it go. UGH!!! (going to go distract myself with TV with my DD).
^^^^^^ how does this affect a person who is truly dropping the rope? (does it not bother them, as it did me & then let it go (like I am)... or does it not even affect them... at all?
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
