NO... I did it to help out the work situation as we have a lot of deals on the go. I just thought it made sense.

I am upset today but am determined to see through the other side of this hell. I am determined to learn the lessons and to stand by myself on this journey. I know I want and deserve way more than he can possibly offer (especially right now). He is a mess to look at. I don't know why I still want him. I just do, and I love him too.

It would be sooooo easy to backslide & to find a way to insist we reconcile. BUT!! I am determined to have WAY better than what we had & I am striving for it. Why does it have to be such a struggle?? I am willing to continue through the other side, hoping for redemptive purpose. For all of this to have had a reason.

The reason: I am worth it.

M:46 H:49 T:20yrs
myD:22
H distant summer/12
H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12
BD: Dec 2/12
asked me begin to move end of Jan/13
moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff)
"agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)